This is worse then it seems

I have no idea if i am just exhausted or sad. I think its both. You are my best friend but I cannot be with you anymore. I just can't. I am a different person than the one you knew in Greece. I don't know who that person is I don't know what I want. I don't what to do where to go. My life here is totally different and I don't know what my next move is. You're hurting but I'm scared shitless. You were all I had to come back too you would be by my side everytime i needed you but i can't let that happen anymore. I will not fall back into my old single ways. 

Come September at least. 

You live very far away stop making me want to talk to you all the time.