Oh and you, be happy. I wish I could do something for you.

Hey Katie, I lllllllllllllllloooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeee you! :) Just saying!

if you were here we would laugh

I am so in love with everything about you.. I can not believe we have lasted almost a year. Well I can. But it amazes me. I have never been so happy, so complete. I am so in love with you. I love how that talk we had, honest, open, truthful. I feel so great when I'm with you. Our relationship has never been better than it has right now, and I'm so excited for where we are going. I love you. :)

She'll bartend your party

Stop being so fucking sensitive!

Oh and, you still have feelings for me don't you.

Don't stand by if you don't like what you see.

Once again another brilliant night. I like our Sundays. :) They make me very happy.

I'm going to take a break, no break isn't the word. Cut back. Only half because you asked me to stop. But i need to prove to myself that I can. To prove that the strength I know I have is effective.

I don't fucking understand why that pisses you off. I fucking hate your mood swings. We aren't always going to be here. Expand yourself. If you don't like something find a way to change it.

Runaway

My mother has very kindly let me use her computer while my is out of comission.

Boy, Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for doing what i asked. Thank you for showing that you really care about me. Thank you for being the one of the greatest things I have ever done. I am so excited for where we go.

well i'll light a fire

My blogs go back and forth alot :P LOL

that was what i asked for. that was more than i asked for. i don't even think i complained about that too you. its like you read my mind!! thank you. i feel so comfortable around you, you make me so very happy. :)


I'm going to kill this space bar!

Byyyye byyyyye Shelby, and Katie! I shall miss you guys. loooooooove you peeps!

So what i'm still a rockstar

You're actually one of the biggest assholes i know. What if I didn't just let things slid away, we would have broken up so long ago. Honestly, do I ask to much of you? I highhhhly doubt that. Actually i don't ask anything of you. Tell me the last time you did something for me. I'm getting fed up of these ups and downs. The only thing I'm asking, the only thing I've ever asked for is for you just to make me feel like you care about me. Which I only get everyone once in awhile... I need you to prove to me, why I'm still in this relationship.

don't ever look back

well. that is pretty gosh darn cool, but its a lot of responsibility, lots of money. Getting old sucks.

What if i decide to change my mind? You won't like that....

Katie,

You're pretty rad yourself :)

Thank you for trying, and doing what i wanted you too.

lay your body done.

i saw a picture of you, and felt my insides crumple. I don't know what to do.

you got a secret you couldn't keep it

I have this feeling of its over. I think I'm done trying. I feel calm about it, even though I'm crying. But Honestly I really think I'm done. I don't want to feel so shitty anymore. I need better. You're no longer worth my time.

No worries. :)

i'm gonna put my life back together right now.

so maybe you should be like that more often, so i don't have to write blogs like the below. dumb face. (that i find very attractive by the way)

and that was a mistake, an enjoyable mistake, but a mistake. here comes the stress.

you really got me bad.

I know this goes against my last post. but its just how I feel.
I'm tired of waiting for you, honestly I don't know why i'm still in this relationship. I'm so tired of doing everything. I'm tired of being jealous.
I've come to realize the only time I don't miss you, or feel jealous is when I'm flirting with other people. I don't even know if I want to still be with you. You're a jack ass and i deserve better than what shit you are giving me. But then when i say that you get all nice for like 2 days. so maybe i'll jsut end it. you can go fuck your lgs that i know you want too. and i'll go flirt with everyone like i like too. i don't even think you would care.

I'm awesome, and you're just awe stuck

I'm fucking in love with you. This is going to end horribly, but honestly, I have the time of my life with you. So I don't give a fuck. You're beautiful, and you make me feel beautiful. I'm quite happy again.

I love you, and you did what i asked you to do. you made me feel so good and special!! I had a great night with you. :)

Cause I honestly believed in you

...I'm not sure how to phrase what is going on in my head.
I can honestly say that I've become one of those stupid girls just hanging around for no reason. You honestly treat me like shit. Name one good thing you've done for me lately. I've known for a while now that any way I go my heart is going to get broken. You said you still want to me with me, then why are you being such a fucking asshole. But then I have this problem where I can't let you go. I have this picture where we are going to spend the summer happy, and in love. But that is just a dream. I acutally see it, with me being disappointed by you. I don't know where I went wrong with you. But please fucking man up, and show me that you still care. This is not just in my head. I don't think you realize how fucking angry you make me.

Maybe I will sleep when I'm dead.

There is something wrong. I'm not that stupid. Talk to me.

I don't think I can talk to you about it, cause if I were to talk to you about it, you would stop. But that is not what I want, I want you to realize what you are doing to me. And stop your self. But I can't be naive enough to think that is what is going to happen. I wish I didn't care so much, and I didn't react the way I do. I'm sorry for that. And I'm sorry I've been such a bitch, but I just want to talk to you.

didn't see a single face that I knew, tell i went nowhere with you

I like how you defend me, and that you care about me. And that you seem more loving now. and you should know that I love you. I'm so excited for summer, I'm tired of never being able to see you.

You always go feeling sorry for yourself.

I don't feel very loved right now.

you're free to leave or stay

I feel like something is wrong.

What are you doing for? To be Free

I have strong feelings for you.

I hope I can just laugh it off

I can still remember why I liked you so much. I can still catch myself looking at you longer than I should. I hope you realize that when I said I would never leave your side. It still applies. Here. Now. All these years later.

I do not like being this kind of person. I do not like being jealous. I do not like how stupid you are being.

My predictions are the only things I have

I wish this wasn't so hard. I wish it didn't throw my emotions out the window to fly in the wind and go every which way. You wouldn't understand even if i told you. and I really am not in the mood to get that look or that guilt trip from you. And when I say I'm fine, I am fine. I'm just not in control of myself. I'll be fine. I just want to be with people that make me happy.

I don't know how to say this without sounding like someone I don't like, or sounding really bitchy... so maybe I just shouldn't say it.

I love you. and she is the only girl that makes me really really jealous. I'm not really a jealous person. But I don't want anything to happen to us. I love our relationship. you still sound happy so maybe I should calm the fuck down. just please don't go back to the way you used to be.

All day I've felt on the verge of tears, and I hate it.

I'm be up up and away cause their going to judge me anyway

I don't know what is going on in Math. My Earth Science teacher drives me crazy. I don't even want to say anything.

Honestly you're like my second mother. Not one that is a friends mom where I'm close with. You're acutally like my second mom. Giving me mom hugs while I'm crying. I know you're always there for me. It makes me happy to feel so loved. Thank you for being there for me.

I'm not having a happy day. But I'm happy I got a few things to be less stressful. I'm not getting fired, which is a huge relief. I have more money than I thought. And the people at my bank are just so nice. I wish I had more money so I could talk to really nice people more often.

I'm also at the point where I don't remember the last time I cried, but this time I know its okay, because things are good, besides last night. Well I did almost cry last night. But I didn't, I manned it up. But yeah, I remember when I cried all the time, but these days, and rarely cry, and I'm very happy about that.

I'm not happy with how that night turned out. Honestly, that was one of my worst nights. Ughhh

What use is it to you whats on my mind.

I want someone that I can share my happiness with. Like well of course there is you. But I mean like in a girly way. like "omg, i'm so happy gurlfriend!." kind of way. :P

Its fire fight and I won't run.

I have come to adore you so much. The way you treat me. Oh dear, I'm so happy. I just want these feelings to last.

I was oddly not jealous at all. Adds to my point my feelings for you were not real. Even though I see the effect I have on her, I was her first, you are my first. Yet you don't effect me, she effects me more. I guess you just meant less to me. I was getting over you when we started dating. I started to date her when I wanted too. I wanted her, not you. Not to be mean. I had my moments with you.

And to answer that question, even though I did kind of above. I do treat you differently, you are special to me. I don't know how I can prove that to you anymore. I still get jealous feelings. I still admire how attractive you are. I still care about you more than I should. So stop questioning if I really care or not. I do. And please become that happy person I once knew you to be again. Now! :)

I will do anything for love, but I won't do that, oh no, I won't be do that.

I miss you, and I'm just in the mood to be with you. Have you make me laugh, lay in your arms not wearing any clothes, listening to your heart beat. Loving every moment of being with you. Cause I do love you, and I feel so happy just knowing that fact. I love you. And I'm excited to see you.

She got the power in her hand to shock you like you don't believe.

I'm don't know if I had commitment issues, maybe I just wasn't with the right people. because I don't feel scared being in this relationship, and I don't feel the need to run, I'm quite happy with the way things are. Or maybe I just got over them, or maybe I just needed to meet the right person.

When you are near i see all that I am

I really hope people don't think I don't care, that I don't worry. He is my brother. And I can't imagine my life without him. and I do love him. But maybe I see the more positive side of this. He is going to get better. He is going to live the rest of his life totally normal. I do love him.

And you, you just know how to make me laugh. And I really do have lovely feeling feelings for you :)

Welcome back.

Thank you for very much! I love you deeply. :) And not just for that reason ;)

I guess you gotta walk away

I really hope what I'm thinking is wrong. Please be wrong. Oh darn..

All in all its just a lie.

Ughhhhhhhhhhh, this pisses me off. You acting like you don't care. Honestly I'm not the person to be messed with. If you want something to change man the fuck up and do it. Fuck this shit. This isn't you. I refuse to wait, I refuse to sit around. I will not sit around. Man the fuck up. Ughhhh

I'll get by, I will surivive.

I'm in on of those moods where I could be content curling up in bed, with a sad book, and crying my eyes out.

Somehow we will make, cause thats what we do.

I won't lie, I'm terrified. More than terrified. I think that is were this mood is coming from. Please.

I know my rights, and I've been here all day, and its time for me to go, so let me know if its alright.

I'm feeling better, I wish my stuffed up-ness would go away though, and my beautiful cough.

I have not written in here in awhile.

I don't know what is wrong, I don't think anything is wrong, maybe its just a time of the month thing. But I hope you don't think anything is wrong. I'm pretty sure this is all in my head. I'm happy with you, I want to be with you. The thought of not being with you, leaves a weird feeling in my stomach, and I can honestly say that my feelings for you are still strong. And writing this makes me feel better. I don't know what is bothering me. Maybe I just haven't been in the mood lately. LOL. I dunno, but nothing is wrong. And I really do hope you know that.

My jealous problems when it comes to you are still there. And its annoying, not the good jealous feelings I get either, the annoying ones.

All of my teachers, minus one who I didn't talk to, said I was a good person. Hearing adults say how much of a good student, and person I am, never gets old :). And knowing that they have said this many times through out my life, makes me feel like just an awesome person! LOL. Maybe that is why I'm so cocky.

I don't know what else there is, so I'm going to leave you with that.

Sooooo, I think I might be sick. Just sayin'

Show yourself, take only what you need from me

I love you. :)

I'm With You

I may be a person to not talk a lot. And let other people talk(with certain people ). But when I want to say something, I completely hate it, with a passion, when they act like they don't care and just say "Cool". Like honestly, i fucking hate it.

I'm so Lost and I like just around the corner.

Now, that is what you call a great day. :)

Oh, the Boss is coming!

Okay, so you know those moods were you just wanna talk about something deep, and meaningful, I'm having one of those now. But I don't really know what I wanna talk about....



I miss you, I miss you more than I thought. And it makes me so happy to miss you. You make me so happy. I get jealous easily, but not crazy jealous problems, just that feeling in my stomach. i know it may not be something to be happy about, but just the fact, I don't know how to explain it. Its me, the one that is horrible in relationships, here I am, in a relationship that still makes me happy, and content to be in, and not me running away. Like honestly, this is the first relationship were I am not running away. Oh god. I love this. I love every feeling I get, no matter if for normal people they are supposed to be bad. I'm so happy. :)

I feel comfortable to know that I do not like you. I am happy with how our relationship is now.

She's my baby, I love her so

Well. Well. Well. Well.

Its not my life, you can do what ever you want. I'm just here to lend a hand, or a shoulder. You know how I feel, but that shouldn't effect you. Do what you want.

:)

You make me feel like a horrible person, yet at the same time a great person. I don't know how you do it. But I like being around you. I miss you when I don't talk to you. But I don't want to be with you. Why does life have to be ever so confusing. And why can't it let me happy with just one person. I should become like those people who have lots of wives, or husbands, I'm down for that :) LOL

Never say Never

I don't know what you want me to stop. I don't know what I should stop. I enjoy it. I won't lie. But I don't like you. I know that. But I enjoy being with you. And I like being around you. I like flirting with you. But I naturally flirt! Ugh...

I'm not the sun

I honestly don't think I can do it.

I love you girl, but I'm not the answer for the questions you still have

So, I have come to the conclusion, I love weed. :)

I'm John Lennon, Its 67, Thanks Shelby for getting this song stuck in my head.

I still find you amazing.

Guess what drug I'm on Ecstasy

Well, that was an another amazing weekend! But this weekends are tuckering me out yo! I must say Friday was delightful in every single way. I will watch Harry Potter through new eyes now. Scary shit man, scary shit.

Boy, do you ever make me like you. Honestly, just honestly, I love being around you. I love the way you kiss me, I just love this relationship. Honestly, just fucking honestly, I'm happy. :)

I want a job, so bad. I wish I was not so lazy.

I'm sorry. But dear god, was I happy when you told me. But even still, I'm happy with the person I'm with now. And we didn't work. Even though one of the reasons I broke up with you, you fixed. But what you said, and my happiness does not effect my current relationship. I'm sorry. But thank you for putting my jealous feelings away. :)

Even if I knew what to say you

This goes against everything I have believed in. But I love it.

Yet, I can't fucking stop thinking about you, I can't stop being jealous, and the worst I can't stop missing you. I can't fucking stop anything. I fucking want all this to just go away. I'm so done with these thoughts. I want this to be over, I want to continue being happy with the person I choose. I am happy with the person i chose. Which is why i do not understand it. Fuck this fucking shit up its ass.

Time is restless

I have come to the conclusion I hate hiding. I hate that I can't say things around certain people. Its not just one person, there is a few people. And I openly want to say that I love things that are illegal. I hate this. This is the person who I am now. And I would like to feel as though you people accept me for that, but instead I feel as though I am always doing something bad.

I hate being jealous of things I should not.

SMILE!

But you left me far behind.

I really enjoy being with you. I really enjoy how I never felt this way before, I really enjoy how I miss you, I really enjoy you. I really enjoy our relationship. You make me so happy. And feel wanted, and special. I really enjoy how much I like you.

I am excited for this weekend :) Spending some nice time with some awesome people :)

I'm not going anywhere.

You make me... I don't know, there is this pull towards you. I like it sometimes, but other times it makes me mad.

I need a little more luck than a little bit

You make me want to make you happy. But I don't know if I can anymore. And I do know that the ways I want to make you happy I am not allowed to do.

RIP Cooper. It sucks that you died. But oh well, its life.

Ahh, you. :)

I want to know more. Really talk!

and people say our babies are walking around

Oh fuck shit balls... :| who?

Will you make me so happy for the rest of my life?

Bum bum de bum bum. I have no idea either.

Yesterday, was quite swell, I liked being with you :) You make me happy. And I still enjoy the way things are going, and it been more than a month! That is amazing for me! LOL I enjoy that I can talk about the future with you, and I don't go running like I used to, or go quiet, I enjoy how I talk back about it. I just fucking enjoy you. :)

I wish my itunes loaded faster...

My weekend, it was good. Busy, but the way I like it :)

That isn't my problem.

Speaking of that, I remember what this blog was going to be about! I have come to the conclusion that I am a very selfish person. When I have a fantastic life, I find something to complain about, like honestly, I have great friends, an amazing family, I take the few things that may be bad, and make them effort all those people. I'm guessing it a teenager thing... But I wish those little things didn't bother me so much sometimes.

Soo... on a side note, LOL, I want these feelings to go away. ahhah ohhh, not they are bad, I do enjoy them at times, but I'm scared they are going to led me to things that won't be a positive effort on my relationship. Ugh. I just want you. LOL, these feelings are funny ones, I've never had them for so long, no matter what you say. I'm done. LOL so funny.

I feel as though I have more to say..

YES I DO!
That conversation was good, I won't lie. I've always loved talking to you, you let me talk, hear what I have to say, and reply. And make me feel as though you actually listened (oh I hate how I am bringing this back to you) so much unlike you, and you fucking wondered why I never talked. Oh god, I very much dislike you. And I can very happily say that I am happy you are out of my life. But no this part was not about you. I learned things that night that I had never known, or would have guessed, which also leads to that selfish thing as well. I'm truly sorry. If I had known that I would have effected you so much, which I should have known cause my first effects me, not her, but the first girl i liked, to this day, everything she does still effects me. ugh, i'm sorry. You deserve better.

Well I think that is all I have to say for now. Yup.

Before you run away

Please just let me stop feeling like this. I don't want to, I just want to be happy. I have everything to make me feel happy, yet I'm not. I feel so selfish

Now its far to late she's gone away

"I should of never thought of you, oh you, you're pushing and pulling me down to you."

I am so sick of feeling like this, fuck. I just want these thoughts, and feelings to go away. And I don't even know how I would explain them. Like honestly I still like you, and I am not even thinking thoughts about not being with you, which is why I don't fucking understand why I am feeling like this. I was so over you, then why when I see you so happy and such does it tear at me from the inside? I have no right what so ever to feel this way. None. I ended it. But I can't help it.
Fuck I thought I got over this, grow up.
I don't want to be here, I don't know what else you want from me.

How can they ask why I feel so angry do you see my problem if I never explain it

So that last blog, i re-read, and it would sound confusing, its about the right person, not a person I shouldn't have feelings for.
But I need to stop walking away, when I am with you, I feel comfortable, happy, happy again, I just feel good. And i still like you, but during this time of the month, and if I don't talk to you a lot, I will go off. I don't know how to explain it, does that make sense? Oh darn. But, I like you, a lot, and I like where everything is going, I am just in like with this. :) LOL yet here I find myself flirting with you, you are just so easy to flirt with. I love doing it, and the way you flirt back. But those thoughts Samantha, need to leave. But with the mood I have been in, I doubt they will. Oh darn.
So I like how its reversed now, now I wonder if you read these. LOL, oh that is funny.

Her hourglass body, she had problems with drinking milk

I love feeling jealous when it comes to you, I know its not a good mood, but its nice to still care a lot about you.

Hush little bady don't you say a word

I don't know if its a bad thing that I miss you. Not like being together. Just when I see you smiling, and being happy and such, I won't lie I get stab of jealously. I did enjoy making you happy. But I am not saying I like you again. I think maybe I just miss you always seeming happy in my life. I dunno. I'm not saying that something is wrong with Trevor, I have been more faithful to him, then I have been with anyone else LOL. Not saying that I'm a cheater of course, but I have just seemed to stop flirting. Which is good. and I do like him, very much so :)

I feel so as though I could do this with my life. But I think I need to get my head into school. And I hate it when you slip those comments into things. and make me feel as though I'm not trying. Which I am. But on what I was saying, talking with you helped. I could see myself doing this. And being able to travel the world and do so, pretty much a perfect job. LOL But I dunno it scares me still. it will be a challenge but then that means life won't be so boring. 7 years is a long time though. I think I should talk to some more people about it. But I don't know what else I could be. Ughh, why is decided these things so hard.

Good morning Portland

I don't wanna hide anymore. You should just realize that what I am not doing something as horrible as you make me feel. I'm not going to die. I'm just living my life.

tripping out, spinning around

I honestly don't care. Its my body.

Take me or leave me

Honestly, Its high school. Its not healthy to be obsessed.

You make me happy.

You are my joy

I like this feeling, me liking someone and not having to question it. Just knowing its there. Always there for a good laugh, boy do I ever like you. You make me feel so good :)
This morning I woke up, and honestly I'm pretty sure I was smiling. That was one of the best sleeps I have ever had :) Its one of those mornings where you can wake up dancing! :D Then just laying in bed, oh I am so content with everything. And Now I have lunch with the people I miss hanging out with, then dinner with Katie, then to her house. Today is jsut going ot be a good day :) I'm happy.

I don't understand what happened to our love

I want to know if you understand how much you changed my life. I don't really know if its for the better. It could be. Who know's. I am stronger than i was.

I want to tear down these walls

So... that was odd. I had no idea where the came from. At least now I am can tell you the last time I cried.
I just kind of lost control of everything, and I can't even say that it is my time of the month.
I don't even know why.
Maybe it was because you surprised me. I do miss you, and you do still have an effect on me. But I just don't think that is. I think my sickness and the feeling that i am about to puke, is the cause. but really starting to cry just right in the middle of school... that isn't me? I rarely cry. Maybe I have been holding things in, but I don't feel any better, I didn't feel horrible emotional wise before hand.. odd.
But I don't think i could be anymore thankful for you. You can make me feel so much better. I really really like you :) And you make me happy :) And I actually miss you when you leave. I like where things are going, and how things have been going, i just like everything about you at the moment. Which is why i can't understand why i burst out into tears... fuck. LOL

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt

I wish you missed me.

Yeah I miss you

I don't remember the last time I cried... Is that bad?

I won't let them take you

But even though that title is a song, its a lie.
you may have just been a dog, a puppy. but it felt like you came to us for a reason. Like you were made to be with us. i don't even know how to describe it. with all your flaws, it just mad us all love you more. you were always just so happy to be around us, wanting to be right there on top of you. I remember being annoyed that I could never fall asleep because of your constant shaking, but i wish i would have let you sleep with me more. I wish we could have done more for you.
I feel silly writing about how I miss my puppy. but you were more than just a pet. you were like a retarded best friend. I wish you were still here. but oh well, we gave you the best life we could have. I'm sorry, and I love you.

You're such a little bitch, gotta follow the master around don't you? the master that will only bring you down a large hole, that i know you didn't want. whatever, that i don't care about at all. But why, are you not talking to me, last week, we were good, now, just because I am dating someone, you go off hating me, cause she hates me. You say you don't like drama? What is then you stupid fucking dumb person. Fuck, you pissss me offf! Just go living your life being a stupid fuck. I don't know why I tried, you're a waste of time.

and youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! oh boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooy! heheheheh I.. I don't even know! Ohhhhhhhhh heheheheh, LOL Yay!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D I feel so content with everything about you! I love spending time with you, and when you are gone, i miss you. I can easily say i have never felt anything like this before. You boy, are amazing.

Its my life.

you know you love me

So, are you joking?? I know you are lonely and what not, but seriously, you're better than this. didn't you listen to anything I said? If anything happens, I'm pretty positive nothing will work out. Have fun?

"Do you want me to let him?"

sayyyyyyyy what?

I fell right through the cracks

And just like that, any doubts are wiped away. Oh boy, I like this.

This time, I have a different feeling.
I didn't feel as though I am rushing anything, as I did with my last.
I feel as though, if I try, which I'm sure he is worth it, it will work.
Oh boy, is he ever a nice guy. And adorable.
I can see us being quite happy with eachother.
I'm quite excited for the what the future has in store :)

I can feel it, Lightening crashes

and you know what pisses me off as well. How I can't find anyone that was as good as you! Why the fuck did that have to happen! Fuck it pisses me off, It was a very large mistake that I can't seem to get over.

I'll be the first to say that now I'm okay

I really don't understand why it makes me soooo angry to just think about it. I don't understand how you can be so upset when nothing acutally happened. Fuck, ohhh so mad. I really should not have started to think about it. Cause now I'm pissed. Fuuuuuckkkk youuuuuu, no acutally go fuck eachother.

you complain about not having anyone, but you act like you don't like me, so i don't feel the need to get closer with you. If you would come to me first once in a while, instead of me coming to you. I refuse to be the only one that puts effort into everything.

fuck they are not taking me away from my friends. I don't even talk to you anymore. nor do you. I miss you, but if this is how you want it then fine. But like i said above it goes for you. I'll put effort into this friendship if you put some back. Fuck, ohhh so mad.

Whyyyyyy, I hate this. I feel as though I could cry, but I refuse to let myself. I have changed so much since last year. what a pussy I was then.

and I feel perfectly fine

Oh god, the giggles.
Please don't let this be a mistake...

Whats mine was always yours

So, last night. Wonderful.
My parents once again proved to be, the coolest ever. LOL. They were just so chill about everything.
In code terms, No Emma Watson's were called which i was worried about having to deal with. You asked if I stilled liked you, or rather stated. And when I said no, you didn't believe me. But I'm over you, its been awhile now, there was a few moments where I questioned it, but no. Really, I don't want you back. You give me those vibes that you still like me. I'm sorry...
I am proud of you for maning up. You know what is scary, I could see myself dating you :| and acutally working out, unlike... not unlike, but its different than all the other guys. I just don't know how to tell you. Or even if you feel the same way. I'm not good at wearing my heart on my sleeve. So I may just not do anything. Or it being a new year, take a jump, take a risk. Ohh Sam, so smart.
I really hope that this year is better.