tripping out, spinning around

I honestly don't care. Its my body.

Take me or leave me

Honestly, Its high school. Its not healthy to be obsessed.

You make me happy.

You are my joy

I like this feeling, me liking someone and not having to question it. Just knowing its there. Always there for a good laugh, boy do I ever like you. You make me feel so good :)
This morning I woke up, and honestly I'm pretty sure I was smiling. That was one of the best sleeps I have ever had :) Its one of those mornings where you can wake up dancing! :D Then just laying in bed, oh I am so content with everything. And Now I have lunch with the people I miss hanging out with, then dinner with Katie, then to her house. Today is jsut going ot be a good day :) I'm happy.

I don't understand what happened to our love

I want to know if you understand how much you changed my life. I don't really know if its for the better. It could be. Who know's. I am stronger than i was.

I want to tear down these walls

So... that was odd. I had no idea where the came from. At least now I am can tell you the last time I cried.
I just kind of lost control of everything, and I can't even say that it is my time of the month.
I don't even know why.
Maybe it was because you surprised me. I do miss you, and you do still have an effect on me. But I just don't think that is. I think my sickness and the feeling that i am about to puke, is the cause. but really starting to cry just right in the middle of school... that isn't me? I rarely cry. Maybe I have been holding things in, but I don't feel any better, I didn't feel horrible emotional wise before hand.. odd.
But I don't think i could be anymore thankful for you. You can make me feel so much better. I really really like you :) And you make me happy :) And I actually miss you when you leave. I like where things are going, and how things have been going, i just like everything about you at the moment. Which is why i can't understand why i burst out into tears... fuck. LOL

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt

I wish you missed me.

Yeah I miss you

I don't remember the last time I cried... Is that bad?

I won't let them take you

But even though that title is a song, its a lie.
you may have just been a dog, a puppy. but it felt like you came to us for a reason. Like you were made to be with us. i don't even know how to describe it. with all your flaws, it just mad us all love you more. you were always just so happy to be around us, wanting to be right there on top of you. I remember being annoyed that I could never fall asleep because of your constant shaking, but i wish i would have let you sleep with me more. I wish we could have done more for you.
I feel silly writing about how I miss my puppy. but you were more than just a pet. you were like a retarded best friend. I wish you were still here. but oh well, we gave you the best life we could have. I'm sorry, and I love you.

You're such a little bitch, gotta follow the master around don't you? the master that will only bring you down a large hole, that i know you didn't want. whatever, that i don't care about at all. But why, are you not talking to me, last week, we were good, now, just because I am dating someone, you go off hating me, cause she hates me. You say you don't like drama? What is then you stupid fucking dumb person. Fuck, you pissss me offf! Just go living your life being a stupid fuck. I don't know why I tried, you're a waste of time.

and youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! oh boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooy! heheheheh I.. I don't even know! Ohhhhhhhhh heheheheh, LOL Yay!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D I feel so content with everything about you! I love spending time with you, and when you are gone, i miss you. I can easily say i have never felt anything like this before. You boy, are amazing.

Its my life.

you know you love me

So, are you joking?? I know you are lonely and what not, but seriously, you're better than this. didn't you listen to anything I said? If anything happens, I'm pretty positive nothing will work out. Have fun?

"Do you want me to let him?"

sayyyyyyyy what?

I fell right through the cracks

And just like that, any doubts are wiped away. Oh boy, I like this.

This time, I have a different feeling.
I didn't feel as though I am rushing anything, as I did with my last.
I feel as though, if I try, which I'm sure he is worth it, it will work.
Oh boy, is he ever a nice guy. And adorable.
I can see us being quite happy with eachother.
I'm quite excited for the what the future has in store :)

I can feel it, Lightening crashes

and you know what pisses me off as well. How I can't find anyone that was as good as you! Why the fuck did that have to happen! Fuck it pisses me off, It was a very large mistake that I can't seem to get over.

I'll be the first to say that now I'm okay

I really don't understand why it makes me soooo angry to just think about it. I don't understand how you can be so upset when nothing acutally happened. Fuck, ohhh so mad. I really should not have started to think about it. Cause now I'm pissed. Fuuuuuckkkk youuuuuu, no acutally go fuck eachother.

you complain about not having anyone, but you act like you don't like me, so i don't feel the need to get closer with you. If you would come to me first once in a while, instead of me coming to you. I refuse to be the only one that puts effort into everything.

fuck they are not taking me away from my friends. I don't even talk to you anymore. nor do you. I miss you, but if this is how you want it then fine. But like i said above it goes for you. I'll put effort into this friendship if you put some back. Fuck, ohhh so mad.

Whyyyyyy, I hate this. I feel as though I could cry, but I refuse to let myself. I have changed so much since last year. what a pussy I was then.

and I feel perfectly fine

Oh god, the giggles.
Please don't let this be a mistake...

Whats mine was always yours

So, last night. Wonderful.
My parents once again proved to be, the coolest ever. LOL. They were just so chill about everything.
In code terms, No Emma Watson's were called which i was worried about having to deal with. You asked if I stilled liked you, or rather stated. And when I said no, you didn't believe me. But I'm over you, its been awhile now, there was a few moments where I questioned it, but no. Really, I don't want you back. You give me those vibes that you still like me. I'm sorry...
I am proud of you for maning up. You know what is scary, I could see myself dating you :| and acutally working out, unlike... not unlike, but its different than all the other guys. I just don't know how to tell you. Or even if you feel the same way. I'm not good at wearing my heart on my sleeve. So I may just not do anything. Or it being a new year, take a jump, take a risk. Ohh Sam, so smart.
I really hope that this year is better.