I think that i can say that this year was one of the worst. Not to sound to dispressing or anything. But honestly, yes there were some good/great things that happened. But the bad things kind of take that over.
1. Cooper
2. You
3. Kris
4. Princie

A lot of death, and some close to deaths.

I will say that this year changed me, I am not the person I was last year. I like the person I am now. I may do something that upset people, but honestly I am closer with my family. I am even closer with my mother and step father.

But I rather not have to repeat a year like this. But I'll take what I learned from all the heartbreak. It has proven to be useful.

Yet there was good things.
1. You
2. You

Yeah that is a lot of you's. LOL
But the first one, you were my first, first for many things, I won't forget you. You did make things easy. I don't know. You were a good thing, I guess. Maybe I'm just in the mood to prove how you were, or maybe you should be added to the list above. hmmm... LOL oh Sam, shut up .

And you, we got even closer, even though that didn't seem possible. I may do things that go against the way you were brought up, and the way you think. And even if you guilt trip me, I know you do it out of love. But, I don't know. I still feel as though I can tell you anything. After all these years. And I feel as though you are more family than a friend. and that makes me happy :) I lovers you.

I'll be happy to hold you.

'If you build it with care, I'll be there, Like I told you, I always give you reason to smile."

i do enjoy, now matter how far apart we are, how long I have no talked to you, how distant our friendship may be. When I see you flirting with some other guys, my jealous side acts up. I wish there was some way for me to make you understand that I'm not going away. I truthfully, honestly, can't leave you. My feelings may die down, but they are never gone. I loved you, and I still love you. I wish you knew that. I may not act like I do. but I do. Damnit, You're amazin' LOL. Oh boy, I miss you. Come back.

Lets talk forever.

"We can go anywhere, are you there?"
Then that was niice, I must say. LOL. Oh boy. Umm... Yeah. Decision made.

I think this year I'm gonna make some real new years resolution.

The city looked really pretty tonight. That random guy on the bus, Yes you may have been high on some kind of drugs, and warning me about a murderer being on the bus, but you seemed nice. LOL Ohh stranger danger, but no, it made me feel like a good person, when I siad Merry Christmas to you. It seemed to make you happy. It made me happy. LOL ohh Yeah not safe :P but whatever.

I'm sorry, for all the things that didn't turn out the way you wanted them too. I don't like the idea of upsetting you.

"You're always on my mind."

Well that is two out of three I no longer have to think about. Gives me some rest of the mind. Yet, I'm still not happy.

Heyyyy :)

Breathe, and forget this.

"You have stolen my heart"

I hate you, so much

I'm bored...

"Imagine there's no heaven."
"But I still miss you more, miss you more than, I still ever did before you left your spores inside"

Well, I don't understand why my mood is so upsetting. Its bringing me down man. Yet, I have refused to cry, well my one eye has... all the time. Only because I am sick, or maybe my body just thinks it is sad, so its crying, out of one eye? No that does not make sense. LOL. But my mind has been riddled with many, many, thoughts. Me no likey. Why do I have to think in such complex thoughts. Arrg. But I feel as though I want to express them now:

You: you, boy oh boy, you are not the right kind of person I am normally attracted to. Feel honoured, I'm hot. LOL's oh I am so funny. But yes, maybe this is why you have not made a move yet, maybe we should have a heart to heart? talk about these things, cause I want things to go farther, we have the same goals here boy. The good thing, that I thought was going to happen, was that I wouldn't have to make the first move. But if I have, I will. Cause I want to. Oh that sounds so whorey. LOL wowwww, but anyways, yes. Man up, you hoe. ;)

You: Ohhh youuuuuuuuuuuu, youuuuuu, yooooooouuuuu, WHY?!?!?! I don't know why I am rethinking things. I was so unhappy. You made me feel bad for everything i did. all the tears. I won't deny that I have a blast in some parts. But those 3 months, I was not sober pretty much the whole time. You put to much pressure on me, I was always there to make you feel better, adn I did. But when it came to me feeling better. You jsut pushed me back down. Then why am i rethinking these thoughts. I don't want you again. Maybe Katie was right, and maybe I do jsut miss teh physical stuff. Or maybe I miss the idea of always haveing you there. and why oh why are those postits still there? You act like you ahte me, even to my face. Yes, that could be a possiblty. Damn girl. Get out of my head. I don't want you back, no I don't. But I dunno, just get out of my head.

You: Well then, even in the state of mind I was in. My heart did skip a beat. I won't be a bitch, and be like oh I am so happy. It kills me to see you hurting, and I wish there was somehting I could do to make you not be hurting right now. But there isn't. You do have a spot in my heart. I don't know what to feel now. I keep thinking of what i felt after. Ohh, not fun stuff. Oh, that hurt. I don't really know what to think when it coems to you. I miss you, not in the friend way. I showed you that. I don't think I could make you happy. I'm also not good for you. I was so much more than happy during this time last year. The feeligns I got when I was with you, was something I have never felt since, I remember those moments clearer than I remember anything, yet it never seemed to matter with you, so why do I even care? you don't care about this anymore. these thoughts are pointless, that time past. I won't get that kind of bliss back, or at least I won't with you, no matter how much I want them back. Fuck, just move on Sam.

To you,

I wish there was a way to show you, without up front telling you, that I do read them, all of them.
Yeah you may not want me too, but it keeps me in check.
I do miss you, and you made me so happy. Don't doubt that, just move on.
I was not right for you.

This sucks

You should really start to question this very foundation.
Please... I want you to see that this isn't right!

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