Wednesday, January 19, 2011

When they said speak now.

I feel like you were a great part of my life. I won't ever forgot all our great times. You taught me things about myself, about relationships. I will always love you, in one way or another, you will hold a place in my heart. I'm happy how we ended, you seemed to understand, to feel the same as me. I have nothing more to really say about you though. Good bye.

You're not a home wrecker LOL. but you did help me lean away from him. But you're amazing, and I love being around you, kissing you, making you laugh. I love what we have, just this, really i want nothing more.

Even though i have her, i want to date other people, the idea of dating seems like a blast right now. Oh golly i'm excited for the single life. I know i've said this before but i really want to be single for awhile now, its been like a year and a half singe i've really been single for awhile.

thats all i really have to say right now. Even though I should be upset in this time of my life, i'm pretty happy with my life at the moment.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

And you girl,

I love you, thank you for being here for me. :)

You and I walk a fragile line.

I feel sad, but I don't feel like I made a mistake. I don't regret this. I really do need this. I hope you understand. I love you, and always will in one way or another. You know that. I don't know when I will want to come back to you. But I need to figure some things out, even though I don't know what I need to figure out. I'm lost. Just don't forget that I love you, and I'm so not happier without you. With you I was a blissful kind of happy. Now I'm confused, lost, and sad.

You're fun, but this isn't going anywhere. I hope you know that and don't get attached. You're a good guy and all, but as I stated above I'm lost, and you help me forget. I don't want to hurt you too.

And you. You're beautiful. I love spending times with you, you make me laugh. That look you give me, and that voice makes me feel like great. But I'm putting up a wall, you're going to hurt me. Which is fine, you warned me. But I don't know what to do, for my sanity I should pull away, but for yours I think you need me to be there for you. So I will be there for you. We aren't classified as anything really, maybe dating, but you can still be with other people right? I think so.

Sometimes it scares me how much I influence you. I hope if you find out about above that you will be fine. But you are wonderful, the world is not a bad place, you just need to look for the good in it. Smile a bit more, I'm always here for you.

Its over. Sorry. We aren't going back to how it used to be.