You don't talk, you don't say nothing

I am to young to feel that way, I feel as though I should distance myself from you. You are so seriously in love with me. But as soon as you said that I saw an ending I can see the finish line. I don't know if that makes me relax or just makes me... i have no idea. I don't like that idea you put in my head, but  you put it there and its not going anywhere.
I am honestly thinking I am going to break down every once in awhile, but I don't really have time too. I need to work, I need to make people happy, I need to make money, I need to do many things. I really don't do much but yet I feel overwhelmed.
That is honestly to far. I fucking hate ICBC... or well not really them, well the guy i have to talk too, i hate him, but i hate the fucking retard i tapped. I won't even say hit, because there needs to be more of an impact behind that. Oh well.
Greece Samantha Greece. Just get there. Relax. Breath. Don't think. Live. Laugh. Love. You got this. Dreams really do come true sometimes
I make no sense.

I am the same as I was in your arms.

I am in love with you. I have fallen hard. I love you. So much. Every moment of the day. Everything about you even the things that I hate. I have given all of myself to you I trust you with all my dark secrets. I am so much in love with you.

It's night like tonight where I can't sleep that I realize how much I truly do love you and all your flaws. In your forgiving arms I feel as though my life is figured out and that no matter where I go in life I will always be welcome into your arms. I feel horrible for having hurt you so badly but I have never regretted what I did. And I know you feel how much this has changed. I am nervous for our futures but why fret on that now, I am going to love you that I know for sure.

I am in this rut that involves being anti social besides being with Trevor. But being with him is so easy which is why I am always with him. All I do is work sleep study and read. Mostly read. I do not know if I should try and break out of this rut, I am not going to lie I am content. I am also so tired all the time.

With being in this rut I have been neglectful of my friendship duties... And I feel horrible about that. And I am here to talk whenever you need me.

No matter what happens I am going to be your side. You can move to the other side of Canada and I will go with you. You sacrificed so much for me and I want you to be happy. And if this isn't then I'll make sure you don't spend nights alone. You are my best friend after all and it's only right that now that I am old enough we take turns taking care of each other. I got your back.

you have got to find out

i don't think you know this, or even sorta realize but every time you talk about him i get jealous.

just the high of laughter we shared

alrighty,

so i was just thinking about you, i know you may know this already but i'm never going to forget, i drunkly told you my plan, but seriously that is just how much you affect me, for the better and worse. i loved you then, and now.

i recently read over my blogs, and i am happy that after everything we remained friends.

you are my rock. the centre of me. you are family, my lover, and my best friend. my constant. I love you. thank you for always being there for me, no matter where life will lead us, from you living a 10 minute drive away to you now living a 2 hour bus ride away, to me wanting to move all over the world. I know i will have a way to contact you, send you updates. thank you for everything you have done for me. you are so beautiful by the way. :)

and for you, when i move all around the world, i hope that in the end i will fall back with you. because i can't see myself with anyone else, because you are everything i want to ever have. but you aren't going to stop me from my dreams, and i know you don't want too. but after i am done, i'll give you a call. but for now lets keep at this challenge baby. ;) things have never been so good, so great. it was always you, i hope you know that. i never forgot about you, i just needed you to see that i am willing to leave if you didn't start treating me like i needed to be treated. and you did that, and beyond.

can we? please?

You were there to wear it from the start.

Alright,

I'm so tired all the time. Physically and mentally. Yet I won't stop working because i know where i'm working to go. Speaking of. I'm getting nervous, there is no way i'm not going. I need to go, I've worked my actually ass off to go. but I'll be all the way over there alone. thats pretty scary, and I've become so antisocial and awkward. I just don't want to be around other people, its so hard to find time and stuff.

I have so much homework, and yet i write two lines, then think i need to listen to much then i go on tumblr and then i go on here... awkward.

Oh well. :P I'll get it done.

I miss so many people, but i have no urge to actually get up and see them. I'm pretty sure i could just stay in bed with two people all day and be happy. :)

Overall, life is great at the moment.