Now its far to late she's gone away

"I should of never thought of you, oh you, you're pushing and pulling me down to you."

I am so sick of feeling like this, fuck. I just want these thoughts, and feelings to go away. And I don't even know how I would explain them. Like honestly I still like you, and I am not even thinking thoughts about not being with you, which is why I don't fucking understand why I am feeling like this. I was so over you, then why when I see you so happy and such does it tear at me from the inside? I have no right what so ever to feel this way. None. I ended it. But I can't help it.
Fuck I thought I got over this, grow up.
I don't want to be here, I don't know what else you want from me.