Monday, May 31, 2010

What are you doing for? To be Free

I have strong feelings for you.

Friday, May 28, 2010

I hope I can just laugh it off

I can still remember why I liked you so much. I can still catch myself looking at you longer than I should. I hope you realize that when I said I would never leave your side. It still applies. Here. Now. All these years later.
I do not like being this kind of person. I do not like being jealous. I do not like how stupid you are being.

Monday, May 17, 2010

My predictions are the only things I have

I wish this wasn't so hard. I wish it didn't throw my emotions out the window to fly in the wind and go every which way. You wouldn't understand even if i told you. and I really am not in the mood to get that look or that guilt trip from you. And when I say I'm fine, I am fine. I'm just not in control of myself. I'll be fine. I just want to be with people that make me happy.

I don't know how to say this without sounding like someone I don't like, or sounding really bitchy... so maybe I just shouldn't say it.

I love you. and she is the only girl that makes me really really jealous. I'm not really a jealous person. But I don't want anything to happen to us. I love our relationship. you still sound happy so maybe I should calm the fuck down. just please don't go back to the way you used to be.

All day I've felt on the verge of tears, and I hate it.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

I'm be up up and away cause their going to judge me anyway

I don't know what is going on in Math. My Earth Science teacher drives me crazy. I don't even want to say anything.

Honestly you're like my second mother. Not one that is a friends mom where I'm close with. You're acutally like my second mom. Giving me mom hugs while I'm crying. I know you're always there for me. It makes me happy to feel so loved. Thank you for being there for me.

I'm not having a happy day. But I'm happy I got a few things to be less stressful. I'm not getting fired, which is a huge relief. I have more money than I thought. And the people at my bank are just so nice. I wish I had more money so I could talk to really nice people more often.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

I'm also at the point where I don't remember the last time I cried, but this time I know its okay, because things are good, besides last night. Well I did almost cry last night. But I didn't, I manned it up. But yeah, I remember when I cried all the time, but these days, and rarely cry, and I'm very happy about that.
I'm not happy with how that night turned out. Honestly, that was one of my worst nights. Ughhh