then you take it away.

don't you understand that i cant physically and mentally tell you to leave me. I am no where near strong enough. i know you see what i am going through you, you say you understand. but then why can't you see that i was asking you to leave me. you need to leave me alone. you are hanging on to someone who only hurts others. for your own sanity i cant process why you would even want to be here. I won't bring you happiness, i will pull you in and then push you down. im more fucked up then you realize. but i border line need you, which terrifies me beyond belief. never have i ever wanted to be in this position. i know what i need to do, but i don't have enough in me to make me do it.