I want to tear down these walls

So... that was odd. I had no idea where the came from. At least now I am can tell you the last time I cried.
I just kind of lost control of everything, and I can't even say that it is my time of the month.
I don't even know why.
Maybe it was because you surprised me. I do miss you, and you do still have an effect on me. But I just don't think that is. I think my sickness and the feeling that i am about to puke, is the cause. but really starting to cry just right in the middle of school... that isn't me? I rarely cry. Maybe I have been holding things in, but I don't feel any better, I didn't feel horrible emotional wise before hand.. odd.
But I don't think i could be anymore thankful for you. You can make me feel so much better. I really really like you :) And you make me happy :) And I actually miss you when you leave. I like where things are going, and how things have been going, i just like everything about you at the moment. Which is why i can't understand why i burst out into tears... fuck. LOL